I don't miss having one because I'm afraid to be alone or because I'm one of those girls who need to have a boyfriend to feel complete, but man, I do miss the closeness of being with someone. I miss holding someone's hand, and cuddling, and seeing their face light up with a huge smile as I walk towards them.

The church is full of couples, and sometimes I feel envy as I watch them. The nice part of me thinks 'Awww, they're so sweet', but at the same time, the mean part of me thinks, 'What's so good about those girls? How come no one's attracted to me?!?!'. The funny thing is, even if someone did like me and want to start dating me, I would turn them down, because there's only one guy I want to be with and none of them are him.

I guess God is trying to teach me to be patient and to depend on Him, and I'm really glad for this lesson. Without this time of growth, I know that I wouldn't be mature enough to handle the next relationship. God is good and I trust Him. That's good enough for me.